Testimonies!

One time I ended up missing a connection that I had plenty of time to make because the plane I was supposed to be on left early. The Lord had told me on the first flight, while I was admiring the new pretty Bible I got for myself, that He wanted me to give my Bible away to another young lady. Because I had unexpectedly missed my original connection I had to get on a different plane than I was scheduled for for the second half of my trip. My seat assignment was in a row with a gal my age. When I reach my seat and started to sit she immediately she started talking to me. The Spirit told me “She’s the one.”

Turns out she was into spiritual stuff – like “energy” and prayer- outside of Jesus and God’s Holy Spirit. I starting talking to her about the LORD and how a personal relationship with Him is better than dealing with spirits that are not God. I asked if I could pray for her and she said I could so we prayed. I prayed that God would show up, that He would make Himself real to her and that she would KNOW that He is God. Amen!

I told her about the Bible I had and how I wanted to give away. Before I could finish she said she wanted it. She started to ask me if I would sign my name in it for her. I began to respond that I didn’t have a pen. As soon as I said the word “pen” the woman in the row in front of us immediately handed back a pen and then some chocolates right after that. to my delight because pleading with people for their heart to turn to the Lord is exhausting on my body and makes me really hungry. The gal I was talking to was stunned because there didn’t seem to be enough time for the person to have actually heard me say I didn’t have a pen before she began to hand it to us. It was like A SOVEREIGN GOD KNEW EXACTLY WHERE WE WERE!

I told her God is trying to reach her. Look at the evidence before her very eyes. I told her how I had missed my connection and that that was the only reason I was sitting next to her on the same plane with her in the first place. I told her that God wanted her heart and that He had sent me to draw her to Himself.

I kept talking to her about the Lord but all the while I started praying really hard in my own heart that God would send me a prophetic word for her and just show that His Spirit is over the “spirit world” and show her that HE IS GOD! I was begging Him and pleading with Him. I knew HE could. I wanted her to see it! Then, the Lord provided. The Lord told me, “Go,” so I started to speak. Often times God doesn’t give me the prophetic word until I actually start to form words in my mouth. It’s a total faith thing from start to finish. Similar to my process prophesying for this blog. The Spirit tells me, “Sit down and write,” so I go through the motions to do it then the LORD actually gives me something to say. Something I am usually learning from Him as I write it!

I started speaking to this stranger I had just met on the plane and God just took over. I told her things about what she struggled with and how she relates to her family though I had never met her before. She was stunned. She was telling me before that she was very intuitive and could read people but it was clear to her that this was different. I told her that I was able to tell her these things by God’s Holy Spirit and that God’s Name is Jesus and He wants her! Her mouth was hanging open the entire time. We hardly said good-bye when it was time to get off the plane as I was still prophesying up until the last minute I had with her and she was too dumbfounded to respond. GOD BE GLORIFIED!

Revelations 19 10 At this I fell at his feet to worship him. But he said to me, ‘Do not do it! I am a fellow servant with you and with your brothers who hold to the testimony of Jesus. Worship God! For the testimony of Jesus is the spirit of prophecy.’

We felt devastated wondering to ourselves where was God.

God touched my own callous heart when we ran out of money for food one week before my husband was going to be paid at his job. I found an envelope in our car with $100 cash in it that I had forgotten about. I went to the dollar store to get us some things, feeling better that we had more money than I thought. I saw a woman and her small child who were aimlessly walking through the store. When I learned that they were sleeping in their car I offered her the $100. I went home with my wallet empty but my heart full for the Lord. I ended up selling my kitchen aid mixer which was a wedding gift to make up the money for food for us later. Very soon after a random stranger gave me a kitchen-aid mixer for free. TO GOD BE THE GLORY.

Matthew 5 3 Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. 4 Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted. 5 Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth. 6 Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled. 7 Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy. 8 Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God. 9 Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called sons of God. 10 Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. 11 ‘Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. 12 Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.

We did not understand God’s plans and His amazing ways! We were dull with disbelief and little faith.

When God wanted us to leave the place we were in He took away our financial security to get our attention. It worked. It seemed like we were losing money left and right beyond our control. For instance, one time when it seemed like we re getting ahead financially I got a horrible knot in my shoulder. I couldn’t move my arm and the pain was excruciating. I had all the right prescription and non-prescription medications on hand and I took them but they would not even dull the pain. I ended up going to the ER to get a pain shot in my hip. They took $500 out of my account using my debit card on the spot for my co pay! I have not heard of that happening before. Things out of our control happened like that back to back. We felt devastated wondering to ourselves where was God.

“Woe to you when all men speak well of you, for that is how their fathers treated the false prophets.”

Isaiah 55 7 Let the wicked forsake his way and the evil man his thoughts. Let him turn to the LORD, and he will have mercy on him, and to our God, for he will freely pardon. 8 For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways. 9 As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. 10 As the rain and the snow come down from heaven, and do not return to it without watering the earth and making it bud and flourish, so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater. 11 so is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.

We did not understand God’s plans and His amazing ways! We were dull with disbelief and little faith. We did not know that God had so much in store for us that was better than our comfort or ability to control things coming our way. After I got back from the ER in the early morming I was finally able to fall asleep. As I slept I heard someone praying over me, exalting the works of the LORD. I do not know if it was the Savior or the Holy Spirit inside me (I do know the Holy Spirit living in believers does not sleep!), but the one who was praying was lifting up the Name of the Lord. “He is God Most High. He is the LORD. He is exalted over the earth. He is exalted over your life.” I woke up refreshed and filled with worship. 

Soon after this incident, my husband had a job interview in a nearby city for a job that would be able to support us and pay all our expenses. There was so much riding on him getting a better job. People had begun questioning whether God was with us because we had become poor. However they were not worried, contrary to what scripture would say to worry about, when we had everything taken care of for us and we looked really prestigious.

Luke 6 26 Woe to you when all men speak well of you, for that is how their fathers treated the false prophets.

These are the words of Jesus, not mine.

Luke 18 24 Jesus looked at him and said, ‘How hard it is for the rich to enter the kingdom of God! 25 Indeed, it is easier for camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God.

Philippians 2 5 Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus: 6 Who, being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be grasped, 7 but made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness. 8 And being found in appearance as a man, he humbled himself and became obedient to death – even death on a cross 9 Therefore God exalted him to the highest place and gave him the name that is above every name, 10 that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, 11 and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.

I wanted to support my husband. I could forgo comfort for a night.

Jesus knows it is hard for us to love Him and be willing to give up everything for Him when we have so much. Abundance isn’t always a blessing. Sometimes it’s a curse that leads weak people away from God. Scarcity can be a blessing that drives even the most resistant heart (like my own) to the feet of Jesus feeling inadequate and wanting more. ALL I NEED IS YOU, LORD! Let it be so. Amen.

We did not have enough money to make it to the city where the interview was and back. We were passionately and desperately asking God to provide so my husband could have a chance at what looked like a better job. We felt crushed under the weight of people blaming us for our circumstances. Yes, we wanted better for ourselves. However, we had peace that we were at the least not in sin and that this was NOT a punishment from God. However, some unsettling voices tried to make us feel differently.

“If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him?”

Desperate not only for provision but for vindication, we went to our small group leaders and told them the situation. They had a gorgeous new home that we met in almost every week. We told them what was going on and what we needed. They said they would pray for us but it was too short notice to help our material needs so they prayed and sent us home.

James 2 14 What good it is, my brothers, if a man claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save him? 15 Suppose a brother or sister is without clothes and daily food. 16 If one of you says to him, ‘Go, I wish you well; keep warm and well fed,’ but does nothing about his physical needs, what good is it? In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead.

1 John 3 17 If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him?

A widow we knew gave us the $50 we needed to make the trip. We headed out to the interview the next day, and nearing the end of the trip, found ourselves stuck in awful traffic. We were praying so hard that God would provide but because of the traffic there was no way we could make the interview. My husband and I were utterly dismayed. It seemed like God had opened up so much to leave us now. In faith, I told my husband not to tell the interviewer he could not make it at all, but to ask the interviewer if he could do the interview in the morning. I knew we did not have enough money to stay in a hotel and make it back but I figured I could sleep in the car with my husband. I wanted to support my husband. I could forgo comfort for a night. I am very selfish left on my own, but sometimes God shows up and just takes over. It’s beautiful-really He is beautiful-and I am so grateful for Him!

We pulled off the interstate to find a place to park and figure out what to do. We argued a little which seemed expected under the circumstances. Then something unexpected happened: my husband who had been suffering from severe anxiety attacks the past several months was shockingly calm. I felt hopeless and defeated. My husband started to speak. “This is what I want to do,” he said. “We are going to find a church. If we want to move to this city we need to know if the church here is for real anyways. This is exactly the kind of thing the church is supposed to help with.” I said “sure,” in the vein of the disciples who agreed to go with Jesus to see Lazarus  and who said “Let us also go, that we may die with him.” John 11:16. Our small group leaders had not helped us. Would believers who did not know us do anything? It was Thursday night. Most churches do a Wednesday program. But Thursday?

A few minutes into our search I said to my husband, “Hey! I found something. This young adults group meets in 30 minutes. I think this is the one. What are the chances I would find a young adults group?!” So we went. We were hopeful about what God would do. We entered the room where the group met, practically holding our breath. They welcomed us. Then we all sat in a circle and each person had to tell something about their week. When it got to my husband’s turn he said that he drove himself and me here for a job interview that he missed because of traffic and we do not have enough money to stay over night so he is not sure what we are going to do.

The two leaders of the group looked at each other after he got done speaking. Then they turned to us and said, “let’s talk after. We can probably help you guys out.” My husband and I quickly exchanged glances. We were floored. Was Jesus showing up to help us through his church? After the bible study the leaders told us that they found a place for us to stay. Our jaws dropped. They said that the group usually goes out to eat now and that they want to pay for our meals. After the meal, one of them told us he wanted to fill our car up with gas so we could definitely make it back and he took us to a nearby store and bought us toiletries for our overnight stay. After dropping us off where we would be staying for the night, one of the leaders pulled my husband aside out of my hearing. When my husband came back I said what happened. He told me, “the guy took out his wallet and gave me all the money in it.”

Hebrews 13 1 Keep on loving each other as brothers. 2 Do not forget to entertain strangers, for by so doing some people have entertained angels without their knowing it. 3 Remember those who are in prison as if you were their fellow prisoners, and those who are mistreated as if you yourselves were suffering.

To say we were floored would be a gross understatement! I would have cried had I not been so excited! Jesus made himself so real to us that night. He held us in His arms and cared for us through His bride-His church. God you are so amazing! Bless Your Name always! May Your borders be enlarged and Your praise extend to the ends of the earth. May You forever reign Most Gracious and Holy God, our God!

This is a sign the Lord did to confirm that He was using the sickness I was dealing with, that has been another recent trial, for spiritual things. I started having this persistent low grade fever that doctors could not explain for months. It was agonizing because I couldn’t take baths to ease my muscle soreness from the many other things plaguing my body. One Sunday I was sharing a prophetic word the Lord gave me with my husband on how the Lord wanted us to share our testimony. My husband and I have graduated from prestigious schools but we are intentionally trying not to get rich, in terms of our bank account. We want to have enough to provide for ourselves but we want to give generously and not have a ton of money accumulated when we die that could have been used to feed people while we were alive.

Better to die and go to heaven then to die condemned because you couldn’t part with your money while you were still alive.

Luke 12 15 Then he said to them, ‘Watch out! Be on your guard against all kinds of greed; a man’s life does not consist in the abundance of his possessions.’ 16 And he told them this parable: ‘the ground of a certain rich man produced a good crop. 17 He thought to himself, ‘What shall I do? I have no place to store my crops.’ 18 ‘Then he said, ‘This is what I’ll do. I will tear down my barns and build bigger ones, and there I will store all my grain and my goods. 19 And I’ll say to myself, ‘You have plenty of good things laid up for many years. Take life easy: eat, drink, and be merry. 20 ‘But God said to him, ‘You fool! This very night your life will be demanded from you. Then who will get what you have prepared for yourself. 21 ‘This is how it will be with anyone who stores ups things for himself but is not rich toward God.’

Got a fat retirement savings account? I sincerely hope you don’t die with the money still there, lest a worst thing come on your than starvation, like eternal torment in hell. Also if you are the kind of rich person who likes to complain left and right about your health insurance plan or the weather or whatever and hope that because you are not acting “merry” like the man in this parable you will not be subject to the same hell fire he was heading towards for his stinginess towards the needs of others while he lived, then you have another thing coming. God sees through those shallow gripes and that false hardship you feign. THE LORD GOD IS ALIVE!

Am I saying not to plan for known things in so far as the Lord pricks your heart to? No. But I am saying if you think there is the slightest chance that your are idolizing your savings or your salary or whatever, you may be better off risking it all now for the kingdom of God than be found outside the Lord when you eventually die because you will eventually die. Better to die and go to heaven then to die condemned because you couldn’t part with your money while you were still alive.

I digress. My husband and I, we have both rejected paths that were very advantageous in terms of money but would have certainly led us away from the Lord. I graduated from an incredibly prestigious college but have been submitting to God’s call to use my brain in a more humble way – like caring for the poor – and in a way that allows me to manage my home and devote much time to prayer which I could not do while having another job. In this way God can use my life to show how WORTHY Christ is by the fact that I have abandoned worldly accolades for Him specifically.

Philippians 3 7 But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord.

As soon as the words of revelation left my mouth I felt the low grade fever just lift off of my body like a spirit of affliction was coming off of me and it never came back.

 

At another time, we found a small group to attend during the midst of an incredibly discouraging season where my husband was particularly down because he was having difficulty finding a job. We arrived at the group and immediately the leader stopped talking to the group, pointed at my husband and gave him a word from the Lord. Our jaws dropped and we were speechless as we had never met these people before in our lives and the word was so on point with what was going on in our lives. God knew! He is so amazing to speak through people and to speak into our lives.

Hebrews 13 8 Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.

People prophesy in the Holy Spirit because of Jesus now and as they did before because JESUS CHRIST is the same.

Mark 6 1 Jesus left there and went to his hometown, accompanied by his disciples. 2 When the Sabbath came, he began to teach in the synagogue, and many who heard him were amazed. ‘Where did this man get these things?’ they asked. ‘What’s this wisdom that had been given him, that he even does miracles! 3 Isn’t this the carpenter? Isn’t this Mary’s son and the brother of James, Joseph, Judas, and Simon? Aren’t his sisters here with us?’ And they took offense at him. 4 Jesus said to them, ‘Only in his hometown, among his relatives and in his own house is a prophet without honor. 5 He could not do miracles there, except lay his hands on a few sick people and heal them. 6 And he was amazed at their lack of faith…

Christ will not work where He in not welcome to work. If you have not seen miracles perhaps this is why. God is still working elsewhere! Though He does not do much work around hard hearts and disbelief.